Bitter-Sweet

For those of you who don't know, on 01.11.09 Sean's father (Bill) and older brother(Patrick) were killed in a plane crash. They were flying home from Steamboat Springs, CO after a weekend of working on the ranch where Sean and i are planning on getting married. Everyone's worst nightmare can true on that day. The first couple of weeks after, Sean and i were going back and forth about if we should still get married at their ranch in Steamboat. After all, not only is it going to be emotional that they wont be there but then to also have it in Steamboat seemed unbearable. Bill was planning on flying a lot of us out for the wedding, so cost was another factor. But after talking about it, we feel that its what they would have wanted. Bill was so excited that we were getting married there. He was doing everything in his power to make sure that it would happen. And Patrick kept reassuring me that the Barn would be awesome for the reception, he wasn't going to let us down either! So with that in mind we are going to press on with our wedding in Steamboat. Its hard because when the planning started this was not how we envisioned it. Its not how its suppose to be. I know they'll be there, just not the way we all thought.